Monday, May 17, 2010
The Longest Silence
What is most emphatic in angling is made so by the long silences – the unproductive periods. For the ardent fisherman, progress is towards the kinds of fishing that are never productive in the sense of the blood riots of the hunting-and-fishing periodicals. Their illusions of continuous action evoke for him, finally, a condition of utter, mortuary boredom. Such anglers will always be inclined to find the gunnysack artists of the heavy kill rather cretinoid, their stringer-loads of gaping fish appalling. - Thomas McGuane
This opening paragraph from McGuane’s The Longest Silence simply stuns me. In four short sentences, he’s expressed my deepest feelings, thought impossible to communicate in such stark and eloquent language, about my sport. It describes precisely why the one fish day is the cornerstone of my fly-fishing passion.
McGuane’s short work describes his long-suffering pursuit of the elusive permit, but the central theme, the nobility of striving for that which is difficult and beautiful, rings universally in my endeavors. It’s the long silences, those periods spent immersed, quite literally, in my waterways while emotionally lost in the nature that surrounds me, be it on a mountain stream, a rural river, or even on the open road, that defines me as an angler. It’s those uninterrupted periods, without work, without phones, without humanity, and quite often without fish, that I think about, that I look forward to, when my mind turns to fishing. Not the big fish. Not the fifty fish day.
Granted, the overarching objective is to catch fish and my focus is always directed to that end. And there’s no denying that a big catch count can make for a memorable day. But, to use the old cliché, it’s the trip, not the destination, which provides the satisfaction. A one fish day, when it’s the right fish or the right day, sustains the gratifying fishing existence.
And, as McGuane suggests, mastery of the fish, the conquest, the full stringer, becomes the antithesis of my pursuit. My goal is not to conquer fish, but to understand them, bring myself to their level - not to lord over them. But that’s where things get complicated. I still post pictures of Haw catches and trumpet the slamming of Roanoke stripers. The hunter-gatherer in me sneaks through now and again, as I’m sure it does in each of us. But I still catch and release. I still respect each fish. Each and every one pictured on this blog swam away, revived and free to continue it’s aquatic existence, carrying with it my apologies for the inconvenience.
And while the fish pictures are pretty, it’s the Silence of the Solitary Fishman posts that come from deep within my soul and the Early on the Road reflections that describe fly-fishing’s true gift to my life.
And The Longest Silence, from the first paragraph on, reminds me of that.